My motherland’s blocking roads, pulling strings,
Just to make me realize —
I can chase my dreams in my own way.
But they don’t believe it.
They never did.
I’m just twenty-two,
But I’ve lived a life some won’t know.
Things they’ll never feel,
I’ve already been through the flow.
Should I regret it,
Or is this just how I grow?
Been through more than most —
But where does this road go?
Why I gotta carry all these expectations?
You think your good intentions need my dedication.
Messing up my plans like you run the nation,
I walk my own path — no need for navigation.
Where’s your school pride?
Where’s your familia pride?
Give out, shout out —
But where’s the love that’s mine inside?
I love indulging others, forgiving them… and then what?
You bet on me, invest in me, implant chips in me.
Then save me — subtle redemption,
Use me like an experiment,
A frog in your dissection.
False peace, hypocritical affection,
I hate nepotism, but I’m in it.
Hate formalism, but can’t quit it.
My info spreads like virus,
So I choose silence —
Got other things to attend to.
Your collective memory’s twisted,
How to break a collective brain?
Everyone’s fighting — that’s great.
But how do I break the cycle again?
Why can’t I own my limits, just be me under their eyes?
My divergent mind’s killing me,
Turning my behavior into a freak disguise.
When can I walk under sunlight with pride?
You exploit me —
A perfect egg makes you wanna break it.
I gave away half my life in Jing,
Now I just laugh —
I’m irreplacable, inimitable,untouchable,intactable
There ain’t no Illuminati,
Just people scared to face their trauma,
Or their familia threatened.
Can’t balance the outside world,
So they project it onto some word.
Be humble, give away your pearl.
Be selfless.
Under the grey area — who raised me?
Who educated me?
They nitpick me; I don’t mind.
The hypercritical me backfired.
Caged hummingbird’s gotta fly out,
Or bite back.
Don’t be silly — how can the government own you?
You use a telescope to peek,
I use it to fly to the moon.
“Can’t believe they hate on me — for being me.
I face a penalty,” like Miles Morales,
Webs of reality catching me.
Can’t believe they don’t believe in me,
My life’s a prose, my actions — rewinding paths.
Haunted by rebirth,
No union, no empty — just a universal set.
Nothing can hype me now,
Love’s never unconditional,
Had to obliviate my beloved.
Feeling hypnotized,
Las Vegas lights — paranormal ties.
New generation’s blue whale game —
Who’s fighting for the next gen’s life?
Got my one-way ticket —
Still exploring my beliefs,
But what if I only believe in me?
Hope one day,
The world’s communication won’t be violent — but harmonic.
Who turned me into a robot,
And took away my right to cry?
After all this repressive education and fake news —
Who will believe in me